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ihsan
2 min readNov 22, 2022
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What’s one experience you wish we never shared?

I can’t answer it. I just sat there speechless.

Those two familiar folks facing each other in a small room.

Those two familiar folks finally have the courage to speak again after a long time. They did not get along for decades, even though at the beginning of their journey had been warm, like blankets protecting each other.

‘I just wish that i could lower my ego’

They are two people who once loved each other.

If there’s someone to blame, it’s me.

Seeing her cry until her eyes swelled up, seeing her fall silent because she was tired of my bad attitude, was enough to label me the most evil person ever.

‘I wish that 10 years ago version of me could know what would happen next’

‘No, it was you who used to be your savior’

‘If the former you didn’t do that, maybe the current you are still a coward who runs away from his responsibilities as a man’

‘I’m sorry..’

Its my turn now to ask.

What’s one experience you wish we should cherish forever?

When you proposed me in front of our friends, is the happiest moment.

When you suddenly burst into crying after hear me say ‘yes.’

‘I’m always grateful to have been with you, even though it’s not always sweet, at least you’ve made me the most beautiful woman in the world’

‘Thank you and good luck.’

I always missed your smile that I haven’t seen in a long time.

Your tears is a sea for me to swim and your happiness is a bitter truth.

I already accepted it.

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