In the midst of many people who want to be childfree nowadays, for some reason I still want to have children.
Despite the great risk — having a child is a very heavy dependency, and the current me seems still far from the parameters of a responsible person, I still want it.
That belief grew when my mother was pregnant with my youngest brother, who was eleven years apart from me. He was born into a family that actually did not want to have another child anymore.
And the birth of my youngest brother is a blessing.
Slowly my family became excited again, after along the time my parents were too busy with their respective jobs, finally after my youngest brother was born, their happiness is back again.
Even though I wasn’t the center of her attention, I was still happy.
He was like an angel to us. Slowly, my father and mother’s smiles appeared again, but after all this time at home they were too tired to spend their time with me and my second brother. As the saying goes, children bring happiness, and it does happen in my family.
Time passed, me and my second brother decided to go to school outside of my city and had to take a plane to go, and because of that, now my parents only live with my youngest brother, his presence is a lifeblood of the atmosphere at home when his two older brothers are away from home.
My youngest brother is also very pure, maybe, among the three of us, he is the one who has the brightest future.
His presence makes me want to have children.
No matter how hard the situation is, when we look at his sincere smile, it feels like we are the happiest people in the world.
No matter how difficult our lives are, coming home to see him waiting for us at the door and then hugging each other makes us feel very fortunate to have been born into this world.
Because of his pureness. The most potent dopamine.
